So I have been thinking about this girl for a while now. I haven't met her but I'm quite sure that I will like her and that we will have things in common. I am usually a lot more of accepting of people's flaws when I'm infatuated like I am about this girl.
Anyways, this story pertains to the article about finding home. Since about fifth or sixth grade I have wanted to settle down with a woman who makes me feel whole. I think that no one I have dated has been in that same frame of mind but regardless, I like to envision myself, with her, living in our dream home, spending perfect days together.
I haven't given this girl a song yet, however I am expressing the same emotion that can be heard in the Beatles song, "Got to get you into my Life." Since I meshed Rubber Soul (my favorite Beatles soundtrack) with Revolver (its predecessor) I hear this song each time I get half way through the CD. While I'm not particularly partial to the music and think that it is one of the more over-played songs of the Beatles (along with Hey Jude), I feel the lyrics fit the situation.
I was alone, I took a ride,
I didn't know what I would find there
Another road where maybe I could see another kind of mind there
Ooh, then I suddenly see you,
Ooh, did I tell you I need you
Every single day of my life
You didn't run, you didn't lie
You knew I wanted just to hold you
Had you gone, you knew in time, we'd meet again
For I had told you
Ooh, you were meant to be near me
Ooh, and I want you hear me
Say we'll be together every day
Got to get you into my life
What can I do, what can I be,
When I'm with you I want to stay there
If I'm true I'll never leave
And if I do I know the way there
Ooh, then I suddenly see you,
Ooh, did I tell you I need you
Every single day of my life
Got to get you into my life
Got to get you into my life
I was alone, I took a ride,
I didn't know what I would find there
Another road where maybe I could see another kind of mind there
Then suddenly I see you,
Did I tell you I need you
Every single day...
I didn't know what I would find there
Another road where maybe I could see another kind of mind there
Ooh, then I suddenly see you,
Ooh, did I tell you I need you
Every single day of my life
You didn't run, you didn't lie
You knew I wanted just to hold you
Had you gone, you knew in time, we'd meet again
For I had told you
Ooh, you were meant to be near me
Ooh, and I want you hear me
Say we'll be together every day
Got to get you into my life
What can I do, what can I be,
When I'm with you I want to stay there
If I'm true I'll never leave
And if I do I know the way there
Ooh, then I suddenly see you,
Ooh, did I tell you I need you
Every single day of my life
Got to get you into my life
Got to get you into my life
I was alone, I took a ride,
I didn't know what I would find there
Another road where maybe I could see another kind of mind there
Then suddenly I see you,
Did I tell you I need you
Every single day...
This girl that I am thinking of seems to have fallen into my path in the next year or so and I feel that I am just making my way home to find her. Will anything ever happen? Who knows. She definitely is another kind of mind there, and I feel compelled to empress and be myself through her.
"Had you gone, you knew in time, we'd meet again"
The odd thing is about this girl is that I feel like she is living the life I never lived. She is the life I would have lived growing up had I not been affected by circumstance. This makes it feel like I am going to see everything that I ever wanted through her, which is in turn finding a better me out there. This makes even more sense of wanting to return "home."
"I was alone, I took a ride,
I didn't know what I would find there"
I didn't know what I would find there"
I definitely feel like the past couple of years (maybe more like 8 years) have put me through the ringer. Despite having grown considerable in all measures of my life, I feel that the most substantial thing I have gained is a greater understanding of my own self, my beliefs, and where I want to end up. I could not have scripted the life I have lived. It's been very challenging and even when I think I know what is happening, I find I am often wrong.
"What can I do, what can I be,
When I'm with you I want to stay there
If I'm true I'll never leave
And if I do I know the way there"
When I'm with you I want to stay there
If I'm true I'll never leave
And if I do I know the way there"
I think the first line defines me best. I always ask myself what I can do to make myself a better man so that when the time comes, a complete woman will want to be with me. This girl helps fuel my drive to be complete because it gives me a goal that is more tangible. Everytime I think of her, I know that is the place I want to return to. With that, I can never lose my way.
"Got to get you into my life"
As the directive of the song, I feel as though it embodies how I feel about wanting to date this girl. I want her to be the nucleus of the relationship. I want her to become the director of my ship and the value of my life. While I know that these are only emotions I feel about Love and relationships, I am hoping that someday there will be a connection that allows us to be complete with each other.
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